Wednesday, March 13, 2013

I never wanted to homeschool!

I never wanted to home school. I didn't want to be one of those people. I had been hurt by them. They made me feel that I wasn't doing my best or the best for my kids if I didn't choose home schooling. That the perfect christian mother would be a home schooling mother. The last thing I wanted to do was be one of them. Besides, that would mean I would be home with all of the kids all day AND be responsible for their education. I would lose my mind! I am going to be more frustrated and yell more! We are going to get on each others nerves and grow to hate each other! Yeah. Not gonna happen! So when our current schooling situation required a change, we decided to look at our options. Since I was sure homeschooling wouldn't work for us, we decided to first go to a local meeting about a home school co op starting up in our area so we could make a fair, educated decision to remove it from our list of options.


Funny how God works, isn't it? Well the exact opposite of everything I thought would happen happened. The co op was amazing and it was clear after checking into the other schooling options in our area that we would be home schooling in the fall. I knew that this change was mainly for my character building. If I was to survive a full school year at home with three kids, I had some purging to do. God is so gracious and so gentle. I am now seeing that home schooling is exactly what I needed. He taught me to see joy in mothering instead of unending, thankless work which led to gentler words coming from me. He taught me contentment in mothering with what He has given me specifically for my kids and not in comparing to others which led to a peaceful attitude. He taught me to see the good in my kids and not just the bad, which led to loving them more like He loves us.  He taught me to identify what situations would trigger frustration in my heart so I could take steps to fight that and not yell. Instead of growing to hate each other, we have grown to love each other.

So here I am. One of them. But it is my story and the path God had for me. Your story may be different. With God's help, I hope I'm not one of 'those people' to you. Home schooling isn't the best option that everyone will someday eventually come around to. Homeschooling does not get you into heaven. Obeying God's path for you is the best option that someday everyone will eventually come around to! Believing that God is infinitely glorious and created us in His image, and that we have sinned against Him and payment for those sins is eternal death, and that He loves us so much that he sent His Son to pay that debt for us by dying on the cross and received God's wrath, and that after he died He rose again and conquered death forever! Believing that is what gets you into heaven. Praise God! And not how well I do or do not home school.


Elise Johnson said...

Heidi, your heart so blesses me, and I truly thank god for putting you in my life. This post is so awesome and real. Looking forward to chatting with you more about it tomorrow!

summer said...

This post IS awesome. Thank you, Heidi!

Mom Judy said...

Heidi, thanks for sharing your heart with us. I am so proud of you and how you allow God to speak to you and teach you through Him and the children He has given you. One of the reasons God gives us children is to teach us about Him and His son. Thanks for teaching me about God's love for His children. It was a pleasure being your mom.